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2006-09-17T10:22:00.000-07:00

hERe ARe SomE UpDAteZz!!!~

16 Septmeber .....

coming soon.. sorry

2006-09-15T12:07:00.000-07:00

moVinG On....
Eu GIVe me NO roPe tO GrAb on ANyMoRE
BuT THeRE aRe sOme Who doEs me..>>

REcENT NEWS!!!

weLL guys .... i got good news hehehkz... Im aTtached to ma x.x back... ehekz.. we giving each other a 2nd chance..... altho there's bad times but i think we will try to work things out.... soo glad that eu accept me back cos i really need someone to be with i cant be alone always ..i hope that we would be together for as long as we can aite.. love eu always cyg ku.....muacKZ

"We bELoNG TOgEthER"

TO mA lasT X

after with ma recent breakup i tot that we would give another chance in the relationship but... eu give me no ropes to grab on..but someone did.. i cant wait until there's a point where i think "wat r we doing" eu did'nt contact me like eu used to.... all our conversation is like cut short...itwas like slowly fading out and i have to move on from there... i have too since the day eu msg me.....

to That sOmeone who's waiting for me

to that someone who have been waiting for me...... i guess its not the rite tme or we are not fatih to be together rite now... cos i knoe i cant give eu ma all a whole 100% and it will be like clapping one one... im sowie.. i really thankful for wat eu have done for me... thank for loving mee... thank for everything...

AS for meee........

well as for me life's still goes on... i knoe some may hate me but i dont mind... hate me or love me.... i dont care laa.. as long as im happy with ma life... can already..... the 1st time im taking of maself... i always think of others but in return i gain? nth from it.. soo for onces let me think of maself ... i need it... i really doo....

things change.

people change..

time change...

heart change....

i change.....

hey FDS im gona be seeing eu guys soon..hahakz.. im like missing eu guys soo much.. i think i had ma time alone enough laa..hahakz.. muackz... gtg.... bye.. blog another time.....

2006-09-11T22:55:00.000-07:00

THe BeGInINg Of A NEw me?
DUH~~!! HAakz

arlow guys ... haha been not updating but sorry abt tat... hahakz... well 1st of all i wanna to shakir tat have a good trip to batam aite...i knoe eu taking a break from your life now.... dont 4get to come back hor... we miss eu alot... and onces eu come back i wanna see a happy eu aite.... DOnt notti and remember the TIT's family members will wait for your return HAHAKz.....eu knoe who rite the members... soo dont go for too long....

be watiing back for your return..........................

Well life for me turn out to be better rite now.... but i knoe can bee much much more better... but one thing that not yet move on is my heart for eu... eu knoe who eu are.. hahakz.. i dont knoe maybe eu just special to mee... just cant 4get eu.... i wanna be with eu... well just hope for the best..... :) ...
Oh yaa did i tell eu guys that im going to temasek poly on the 23oct? haha... im like soo happy laaaa cos i didnot expect in ma life to go to poly cos i was from a normal tech stream and to nitec and now in poly... congrats to me... i will work hard and dont let ma parents and friends down.. i promise tat.... just got alot of things to BUY LAA!@!!! omg ... need get a laptop been pestering ma dad for tat haha.. dont knoe when i will get... then need to buy new bag.....new baju2.... laa just cut it short everything new laa.. cos i knoe im a new person now hahah.... all come down to $$ ... no money no Talk.... haiyo...... hahakz.. nvm will find a way for tat.....

Now lets talk abt ma dance life....

Eu guys knoe tat im a soo call near dancer just started afew mths ago... and been through alot...hahakz.. now im currently in a new dance crew D'MAX!! hahakz.. i really learn alot from there thkz to faizal aka big mama... he really teach me alot that i wont not learn from where i use to learn dance from..... the group consis of 10 members hahakz... just love them alot.... well im trying to get to knoe more abt them cos currently onli half turn up cos of their exams and soo on.. but 5 guys will be preparing for DANCE FLOOR.......

ma 1st performence with d'max a sentosa golf club..!

DANCe FLoOR HeRE i COME!!!

im joining dance floor!! whOO whooo soo better catch us on the 23 sep aite...... we will try our best no matter wat... got a hell of a training this pass few weeks...and i knoe i got to work harder im like soo the like cd rosak like tat hahaha.z... got to work hard furbee..!!!

HErE are the guys that will be joining....

shahrul fadli faizal me! and fariz..........................
oh ya dont care abt a gal behide haha EXTRA jER!hahakz

SOO SUPPORT US AITE@@!!!
D'MAX ROCKZzzz!!!!
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K guys im done for now... will update ma blog..aite... takecare ...MuaCKZ
DO TAG ME AITE!!!! haHA

BYE!!

2006-09-09T23:59:00.000-07:00

HeaLinG My HeARt-
HeaLInG MY SOuL-
SLoWLy SeTTiNG mY SElF FrEe-
From whERe i STuCK FRom.....

Hello guys.... hows your day's going on? well as for me... im moving on.... trying to be happy in and out of me.. its gona be hard for me... but im trying... trying to move on with my life without eu by my side... i pray for eu....tat will have a happy life....i always love eu but i just cant be holding on to an untouchtable rope for too long.. till when rite?....

moving on...
\~saying ma last goodbye to FDS family members~\

today FDS cREw having their performence at bugis...... soo i met up with shahrul at SK mrt station at 1.30pm...haha but i was abit late laaaa hahak.. was doing ma enrollment thingy for poly... haha.. still not yet take ma xRAy result and mail all the document tat have to be sent to the sch... soo the leiceh laaaa.. omg!...hahakz.. continue on.. abt 2.30pm we reach bugis ..... slowly we walk to mac..its thier holding area... reach there saw the members omg... tehy look great ..hahakz... somemore the gals.. sexY suNdELL!!! hahakz... BLACK & WHitE...i LoiKE...!!
WE Chit cHAt aWHiLE ...... ard 3pm their performence starts..... they perform well guys congrats but need to put more A>T>T>I>T>U>D>E aITE.... tmr Still have one more chance to prove your self aite..... soo dont bee sad or look down on yourself... i mean mistake comes learning will take place...soo dont worry... i knoe eu all give your best..... but sometime ppl just wan you all to do really better then best....if eu knoe wat i mean... take time aite.....

Soo after the performence its time for me to say goodbye to them for now... cos im bot beeing seeing them from now on till i settle my self 1st... im sorry to do that too eu guys.. i am... i just dont wanna put a fake smile infront of eu guys everytime i meet eu guyss cos inside of mee its just full of saddneess...and i just really wanna pause and just be alone...just spent time on remodeling back to ma old self...where happy go lucky is ma game...hehekz.... i will really miss eu guys...... i do... dont worry i wont 4get eu guyss... amy........ayuni..... yenny.... john.... JusT WAn to SAy

Thankz.....
for being there for me when im in need of someone
for loving me like your own brother
for taking care of me
for your hear when i need someone to talk too
for your help that i need when i really dont knoe wat to do

i wont 4get eu guyss....... and all the members of FDS.... love eu guys always.... just remember tat this is onli a short parting from each other.... i will be back soon, a better me, a happier me... hahakz...aite.... anything eu still can contact me..... MUACKZZZZZZZ!!!! sAYaNG EU GUYS LAAAA!!!`~

tears that we share means alot to me guys.........

before i go.. when ever i need something to pull me up from my bad time's i will listen to it.. ...... i just love the lyric & song from

Joey Mcintyre- Stay The Same

Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself,
you¹re better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same,cuz there¹s nothin' 'bout you I would change.

I think that you could be whatever you wanted to beIf you could realize,
all the dreams you have inside.
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say,
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way.

BridgeBelieve in yourself.
Reach down inside.
The love you find will set you free.
Believe in yourself,
you will come alive.
Have faith in what you do.
You'll make it through.
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WOrDs iMpACt Ma LiFE.....
sOo i KNOe i cAN MakE it.....
i BeLIEVe iN mY SELF........

2006-09-09T02:05:00.000-07:00

8 seP 2am

mA HeaRT JuST WAnnA SToP BeaTINg....
CANt DO THis ANymoRE..........................

haiz... im just hurt really hurt until i cant stop crying, i just cant take this anymore more blow, day after day a gun pointed to ma hurt just waiting for it to trigger..
waiting for something to happen
waiting to hear something that i dont wan too
waiting to lose someone
waiting to be hurt
waiting to be lose
waiting to read something tat really make your tears just rush out from no where
waiting
&
watiing

after going this 1st week of sep...i dont find the point of going on in ma life nomore.life is a very hard place to be in.... but i was strong.. i still have ppl who really care and love me.... im 19 . still have long way to go.. ma dreams to aim for... ma hopes.... ma wish.. i still have things tat i wan to do tat i cant do now.... just waiting for me in the near future.... i knoe tat im a soft spoken guy.. ppl just like to use me and take advantage but in ma antire life i dont have any hate feeling towards anybody.... i just dont find it a point to do tat.. cos its just make eu not a better person....

/MA wIsh FOr EU

I hope eu knoe what eu doing.. cos IF EU happy in your choice i will be happy for eu... i am.. altho i cant get wat i wan... i will still always love eu ... miss eu.. and care for eu.... i really do.... i just cant be tat perfect guy orr your dream guy.... wish that eu will find the guy eu been waiting for..... i will pray for eu....

/As fOr meee

i think i just have to move on.... i will try slowly... i knoe it take time, but i knoe im strong enough to really move on be the happy go lucky guy that i used to bee....

/ma WIsh

hope tat one day i will be with somebody tat love each other.... im just waiting for tat someone.... i just need tat speacial person in ma life.... and i wish to be ma old self again.....

SOon i Will BE mA oLD mE BACK
HEHEkz..

ard 5am when to slp...........

wake up at 12, fariz called me ask me to watch movie with shilla.. "THE LITTLE MAN"
soo i decided to call shahrul and fariz kto ask him to tag along...ard 3 we mit up at cp 7eleven... fariz shahrul fariz k and me headed to boon keng to fecth shilla cos she mit us after her sch... hehe.... reach boon keng we have a puff then go eat at kfc... hehe thkz fariz k for treating.. haha... ard 5 we make a move to PS... but we change and when to cathay.... to watch the movie laa..fariz k treat us again..thk q...really thk. hahakz omg the movie iss very funny have to go see... but its NC16 but shahrul onli 15 got in hhehehe.... sunnndell sekali!! hahakz.... after the movie end we walk all the way to bugis... cos fariz k wanna go buy his things... iyelaa mentang2 da de duit... go SHOPPING LAA... waw really he bought alot of stuff... hahakz... lazy laa to say wat he bought... then ard 1050pm we wanna go home laa... waiting for the taxi AIYO!!! soo the like waiting for the durian to drop laa.. haha one by one never pick uss... omg dont wan make money izzt... aiyo...then fariz k fed up already go and book 2 cab..hahakz...after getting the cab we headed to seng kang shilla hse... chit chat ard 1 we make a move ... fariz k fariz go take cab to go to esplande to mit our friends over there.. ... yaa now im at home. typing all this.. abit slpy.. tmr going bugis to watch FDS perform hehe..

ok i gtg... blog again aite....take care.. dooo TAG ME!! tHKZ..HEHE

2006-09-07T08:40:00.000-07:00

~~HaPPy 19Th BiRthDAY!!~~

Today, 7 sep is ma birthday...

on the 5 sep ....

Have to wake up soo the early for ma medical appointment at woodland with ma dad..... then after all that done.. when to CMPB to go and make my poly deferment but never get cos have to get letter from the sch.. omg... soo the leiceh kan.. hahakz.... just cant wait for ma poly to start on the 23 of oct... then follow ma fater to queenstown to sumbit his work form ......

after tat i called yenny(FDS memberS) ask where is she... then she told me she at the gym laa with mariam(fds) soo tot of mitting them laa cos they will at Jurong east there.... soo i take the train to jurong point cos we suppose to mit ther..... then yenny say she wanna bath 1st ..soo i have to wait... i reach the boonlay mrt soo i go and smoke laa... walau very long sia have to wait for them... omG!! DurIan can dROp laa...hahaAHAHKz... ARd 2 ++ they reach then kiss here hug there..we when to jurong pnt to get something to eat at mac.....HAH yenny funny sia she keep on saying abt how she exercise then go and eat mac spicy... haha.. yenny next time down go gym if eu wanna eat junk food hahahkz just wasting your time...FOR NOTHING!!hehekz AFTer aLL that we when and go for a smoke sit at the stair and chilling.. then ma ex ask me to mit laa at bukkit tima..then after saying bye bye to them.. i walk half way to the bus stop laa thhinking of going to BT...then i change ma mind hahahkz.. i also dont knoe why maybe just miss them alot laa...hahahkz.. then call mariam and ask to wait for me cos they heading to the domn where they pract dance to see ma dances mate and they are ma so call family F.D.S = freako De Stylerz.... they are just of crazy peeps that like to dance and talk and do stuppid things..hahakz.. but really have alot of good memories with them that i will never 4get... they are like ma own bros and sis...

ssoooo one by onee slowly come and mit us at the domn laa.. haha i like thier dont cha dance step wow soo the nice..hahahkz.. thk issac.... hehekk... the pract was fun laaa i just sit them watch them... miss the old times.(thats another story)the worse thing is when we gather and chit chat hahaha isSac joke's just cant make me stop laughing laaa omg.....hahakz.. everybody was likeee soo the noisy.... cos of his stupid lame jokes..and stuff..hhehe kiut la hee... then its time to pack and go home...soo one of ma friends sick soo i accompany him to his hse laa to stay and look after cos his parents was out soo nobody home.. but soon after that his parents come back.. too late to go back slp over there....

6 sep
the next moring,

WHen out of his hse.. to go back to the domn to pract again cos they pract hard for this sat and sun movie thingy at bugis...hahakz.. i wanna see..cant wait laaaa.......

blA bla bLAaa...wHEn nite came. there's where maaa tear's drop laa..soo the touching laa cos we where siting ard in a circle..then sunddenly i hear happy birthday song from back OMg.. too ma surprice i saw john (ma brother lurb) was holding a cake laa for mee.. omg soo swit kan..then come shilla, fariz (shilla bf) shahrul and some of the fds members...awww.. they sang me a birthday song and i was like AWWww wanna cry lucky i tahan it....heheh if not paiseh siul....then i blow out the candle and make a wish laa.... my birthday wish was for that someone to be back in ma life.... i think some of eu knoe... k continue on... then they bought abt 20+ set of kfc food meal.omg..alot laaa... ahahhakz.. i really love eu guys alott....really....haiz.. dont knoe how to say thank eu... aWWWwwww eu guys really make my day....if not i dont think i will be celebrating ma bday also....
THANKZ EU JOHN SHILLA FARIZ ELF RAIHAN MARIAM YENNY AMY AYUNI WAN ISAAC MUMMY AMIN SHAHRUL KID B.B hmm did i 4get anybody else? hmm i got sorry tau hehehkz.. i no memory laaa thK ALthoh is an early celebration hehe
nite come then some of us torn for the day... me shahrul elf ayuni mummy yenny and blue boi....we then head to pineer mall to lepakz for the nites there... when in sit buy some drink then mummy wanna play game laa so we play HEART ATTTACK>!! heheh.. was really fun laaaa hahah and funny cos all of us where like kan chong to put our hand.. hahahz.. ashmAH attack siul...hehehkz... then lepakz until the next moring till 7 haha cant 4get wat we where laughing in the middle of the moring omg laa.. soo the noisy cos we slpy rite then somethime we tend to do stupid thinggs os say stupid stuff hehehkz... keCOH!!!! thenn we headed home..

7sep

when back abt 10 go wash up then go slp after tat fariz call me ajak me go club but i cant cos i 2 days never when home... so just follow him to CHCC laa to see the cheer pract...bla blaaa blaaa.. was like me and fariz was daancing .. teaching him some steps..ahah alot fun laa..hehe then alot of comotion abt who going club who never go.. stress sia seeee fariz stresss hahahkz.. but he funny laaa tat guy..... thenabt 10Pm take cab to BB cos they wanna mit their friends soo i just tag along and drop at the mrt to go home...
soo i just reach home also abt 11+ haiz... tired and boring.... ya end here aite..

blog another day.. babye.... do tag mee aite...

thANK EU FDS MEMBERS AND SHILLA AND FARIZ AND SHAHRUL FOR ALL THE THINGS EU DOO!!!LOVE EU GUYS!!! MUACKZZZZ!!! EU THE ONLY PPL THAT MAKE MA BIRTHDAY A SOMETHING>>

missing eu---------------

2006-09-04T05:38:00.000-07:00

hello guys..wat the heck just wannted to blog again.. its been sometime since i blog.. and alot of thing happening in ma life tat make me really wanna burst in tears and find someone to hug... i just need tat someone rite now... but i just keep messing up things.. or i just wont be able to find that speacial one...haiz... wat did i do to deserve this....

WHAt dId I DO To dEsErVe thiS=====
eu gave me hope and i tot there's a chance tat we will be together
eu gave me light to show me route to find maself
eu gave me life to keep on going in this unfair world
eu gave me the love tat i always seek for
eu gave me memories that i will not forget
and
eu just will never accept me back................

eu just dont knoe how long i hold on to eu... i always love eu.... always..... haiz....

2006-07-31T12:47:00.000-07:00

yeah